I've been following you for quite awhile.
Ever since you were going out with Emily, and I read everything you posted when you two brokeup.
You two seemed so close.
I have been in a relationship with this boy for 10 months, he brokeup with me two days ago.
We were so close, I trusted him with everything. He cared about me so fucking much. We loved each other so much.
He was my bestfriend.
Except throughout our relationship I took things out on him, my insecurities. And I was always scared of losing him or something going wrong.
He got 'sick of my shit' apperently, but it was so sudden :c one day he was telling me we would spend the rest of our lives together and he would never leave me, the next he couldn't be with me anymore.
He's been going through stuff though, his step dad is abusive, and he was suicidal and went into hospital for extreme stress and now he takes prozac and goes to a councillor. I felt like it was my fault he went into hospital, he promised and promised me that it wasn't though. But now I am feeling like it was my fault.
He's changed schools recently because he was sick of the other one, it was shit, the teachers were shit and he had no friends.
He's been under so much stress, and I am sure he's been confused with everything he's going through with councilling and such. And I haven't been helping him with that.
I don't know what to do though, I can't lose him :c
He told me to leave him alone for awhile, and I got a friend to ask that if after this time alone will he want to be with me again and he said i dont know.
I am so scared, he was everything I had and I just want him back. Maybe you could say something to help - maybe you've been through the same kind of thing. He loves me so much I know he does. He's all I have, all I want.
I’m not really good with helping people with stuff like this but the only thing that I can say is just don’t let go of him if he means a lot to you. It’s easy to say we’re fine but it’s hard to actually be fine. All you need to do now is assure him you’re going to be there for him and help him through whatever he goes through and remind him he’s not alone on this.
Sorry, what you wrote kind of relates to me somehow and it made my mind go blank so i’m not much help.